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Friday, 09 January 2009

Thursday, 08 January 2009

  • im not gay!

    Ok i don't understand this i have two friends (i'm using fake names to keep their identity safe) well like my friends "jessica and john" are like annoying me so much they keep asking me i'm not gay and the thing is i'm totaly not far from it and their are like yeah but you do gay things and it just pisses me of so much like 1st of all. What is considered gay or not and thats messed up that like things you do can be labeled as that i don't i jst surprised by it. So anyway they tell me the things and i'm like wtf! thats just me being me and i like hate them so much right now cause its like everyday they are saying that u know and then i'm like so what if i was gay so they are like oh we wouldn't care.. hmm if you wouldn't care they why are u bothering me so much about it and then they go b/c u wont admit and like part of me jst is like what the hell am i going to do b/c i know i'm not gay and i'm not about to go say i am jst b/c they think i am. So i know one of these days i'm jst going to flip out on them and ..... idk what might happen but like the last few weeks i guess its not that bothersome b/c i kno i'm not gay but like i started thinking why would i have to prove myself to you like who the fuck are you for me to have to prove myself to you ? -Sigh idk what to do about this. the thing also is that idk maybe i was raised differently when i say i have like no problems with no other religions or races like that i literally accept everybody so like if i was gay i would actually admit i guess they don't kno me and if they don't know i don't think they should be my friend. i also don't get what everybody's obeseness about someone elses sexuality i guess you call it ppl should really keep to their selves hmmm feedback would help much! =]

Monday, 05 January 2009

  • Suicide

    I know exactly what u mean suicide is always on your mind i would think about it when i realized i have never met my real mom and have no idea who she is or where she is or what she is. But the thing that separates me from becoming a cutter is two reasons i guess 1st cutting isn't enough pain  real pain comes on the inside the pain u cant get 2 the pain u cant stop. Its the pain in heart that you feel every single day no matter what your going through and that pain you will probably live with for the rest of your life and thats what i used to go fr not that long ago two weeks tops! i used to hurt myself by losing friends or hurt myself in other ways like getting people mad at me until they want kill me. Not just regular friends but i had alienated the best of my friends i'm talking about people who  i know who will be their for me no matter what. Idk maybe i was just testing too see if they were their for me too see if they would leave me and give up on me b/c in reality thats what i wanted them to do b/c then i can say i have no one i truly have no one sometimes when i feel good which is actually new to me you kno i had to destroy myself like destroy the strong bonds i made with ppl good thing didn't suceded their is much more to this story i guess i should start from the beginning To be Continued Actually to be restarted...........
     

Saturday, 03 January 2009

  • I dont get whats so funny about making gay jokes on a another guy thats not kool at all thats like so disrespectful and it only shows how ignorant u are when u make gay jokes.But like its a part of my like everyday life in school y know its like u cant go a whole day w/o hearing one and i have to admit i have done that b4 also but like i think really and truly why do ppl find it funny to make fun of them. can someone ans my question
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    • Birthday: 1/10/1994
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  • im Gordon K. wondering what the k stands for well its a lonnnng last name thats what it stands 4 ok im not afraid of who i am and idc what u think about me I AM REALLY NOT CONCITED ND ppl seem 2 think that well anyway my best freind is luisa garcia and she is the best freind any guy could ever have in a life time she understand me in every wayy and knos all about me the true me and i love her for it she is one of the greatest ppl i kno and i do not kno how i could go on living with out her she is that awesome we have so much in common we might as well be twins =]]we share so many things in common and we even have our own secret smiley that noone can steal loll mhm ooo.we even have our own sonng which is super kool . and i also have krystal who is another of my best freinds and me and her have our own word which one time shawn tried 2 steal. shawn is my freind i will still keep him as one of my greatest freinds. hmm loll well high school is pretty awesome and i like it for the most part

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